He’s not is the bottom line here. I don’t know what to feel on a day like this. When I look at the whirlwind my life has been since he died I'm left thinking that I would be someone else were it not for that fact. I also think that I like the me I am not better than the me I would have been if the death of Rik hadn't stirred my soul and made me re-evaluate myself. In this past year I have laughed and cried more than ever before. The most important thing though is that I have learnt to gamble and just go for it and hurl myself in to the world. It’s ok not to be perfect it’s even ok to be a complete and utter tit as long as you know you are and as long as you accept and love that about yourself and don’t blame others for having those same deficiencies. It’s ok to be happy, I'm almost always happy in a world where lots of people are depressed and there is nothing wrong with that It’s effing marvellous. Kindness is important and being humble in your own way is a virtue, I think I had forgotten that. I will never forget it now. All men are equal and therefore no one can ever be your genuine superior. Equality, opportunity, wisdom, freedom, love. Thank you Rik I will never be the same. I will have myself a fucking good life better than I would if you still had yours weirdly. I never knew you but I miss you and my heart goes out to your family and friends, Ade in particular. He doesn't seem to be doing too well, but what would I know. I've got me now and thank you for that.
I will be uploading loads of Rik Mayall stuff as soon as I've got my Photoshop back so just clench your buttocks people.